Everyone hear me!

I will become my dream! I WON"T GIVE UP!
I promise every one of you.

Who ever I'm really talking to.

I want to meet someone.
I want to be in love. Then again, who doesn't want to? Yet that question doesn't make it any less than it is. I want to do everything for that person. I hope I'm god enough to love myself, otherwise I won't get anywhere. I love you. Whoever it is I am really talking to when I say that.

Tangible Soundboard. Amazing creation of electronics.

This is something I am seriously interested in. It's so amazingly simple of an idea to think of and it amazes me how they brought it to life. This tangible sound board would keep me occupied for months! It is built with ten different layers of notes to use and so many different ways to use them. The combinations of sounds and rhythms are pretty much close to endless, and they all sound awesome.

My life's way.

I won't commit suicide, ever. I will not give in to this stupid consciousness, that thinks life is too much. It's stupid to give up. I can't give in. I will never give up. I want to make myself looked up to, and giving up is suicide in itself. I WON'T LOSE TO THE STUPID PART OF ME THAT CREATES THE STUPID IDEA OF DEPRESSION! I WILL NOT FALL VICTIM TO THIS THOUGHT OF FAILURE! It is something I was born to go against. I can't become anyone even to myself if I give in to anything! I don't care if it hurts! I won't give up. My mind can commit suicide but my body will still keep moving, my vocabulary can erase itself but I'll keep talking, my happiness may wear thin but I'll keep smiling, my life can come to an end but I'll keep living. Through my legacy that I promise to leave, I will still be alive and never give in. I will NEVER give up.

Feeling..

I wonder what it is. I need to do something. Today I will draw something. Something that when I look at it I feel discouraged. So that I can conqure it and master it. Today seems heavy for some reason, and normally, I would just lay down and stare at the ceiling and think, but today I am going going to go against feeling. I am now going to draw this next picture no matter what.

Things to D.R.A.W. before you die.

I've been thinking. Every time I wonder about my life ending here. I think of what I would feel if I suddenly realized there was something I wanted to do, but I could only wish I had done it as wait to die. I wonder if there's things in the world that I want to do with my own art. Things that I would do to leave with the rest of the world, so that I may be remembered, as more than just a person. I don't know why but I feel like something is waiting for me in the future. Soon, and for some deeper reason, sometimes it feels like I can't think further than that certain time period. It seems blocked off. I don't know why I think this way, but I can't ignore this. I have to do something, so I may do whatever it takes to get past it, no matter what. Young or old, I will succeed young because I want to change the world before I am twenty to show people what I believe in and show what I think is right. I don't know what God has planned for me, yet I still have to be confident. I want to be that person I've been trying to be every day, and change everything that I can't get over right away. I want to be a Hero. Someone who doesn't loose control of his anger for things that don't matter at all. Someone who has no fears of things that involve getting hurt or killed when he wants to fight for the ones he loves, and is dedicated to do so willingly. A person who doesn't call himself a Hero, yet is called a Hero for his actions. Unlike my old thoughts, I want to be ready to stand up to that person who pulls a knife and under the name of someone who is strong because he has a purpose. Unlike my old self, I want to prove my existence. I can't stand it when I am too caught up in being "normal" when someone is being hurt in public. I always wish I had the guts to act out and tell that person to talk to me if he wants to hurt someone. I want to become the greatest hero, like the one I think of every day. I will become a Hero.

The weird things. Current mood:Thinking. Category: Life

I wanted to get this written down. I needed to get it off my thoughts and really see what goes on in my head for once.

I realized, even as overlooked as this subject is, that everyone, and everything,
is weird.

I've heard those words being thrown around my whole life. And I thougt I knew my reason for believing that it was true. Now I get it. I understand, my own interperatation of why it makes sence, why it's true, and why it matters so much to the extent where I end up having to write it down somewhere. I know that I myself am one hell, of a weird person. I think so weird. the way I put things together, confuses half of my conscience, and makes total sence in every aspect to the other half of my conscience. Yet I can't explain why it makes any sense at all when it does..But that only brings up to my toughts,
why the hell is it a problem or frustration to not know how to explain something I should be aknowleging, as a gift. Why do I enter a negative state, when I can't explain something that makes me who I am. I mean, if I were able to even explain one aspect of myself, within a limited amount of words, then it would only mean, to me, that I am nothing more than something that is describable. Less than undescribable. Ordinary.
Not weird.
I don't know why, the words ordinary and normal, even have a "definition". Even more so, why it is even used to describe things.
Ask yourself, ask anyone. Ask that person to define normal. They might say something like, well, regular or standard. And when I had answerd that, I asked myself, well define regular, define standard. And then I can't say anything deeper in definition without saying words that have the same emptyness in definition. In my mind, the word normal has nothing to do with the description of any existing organism, nor object. It means as much sense to say someone is normal as to saying that someone is perfect.
What I'm trying to point out is that no one, can be normal, without being weird, and still, though everyone in this world, is weird, it will never mean, weird is normal, because as much as we are able to define normal, we are able to define weird. Because weird, in definition, is out of the ordinary, and if ordinary isn't clearly defined, than neither is the term, weird. Regardless of the thousands of reasons why it would make sense to use the word, that, to me, is what life is made of. And life makes more sense to me when I look at it, from a weird perspective. And it's not a weird perspective because I tried to be opposite of ordinary, but because I believe, that I am weird. And my perspective, is a weird perspective. Defining that, is something I'm glad I can't do.
Therefore, I believe, that the best things in life, are weird.
And I like it that way.

Chalk Art.

This is now an addition to my goal, to become well practiced in this form of art. It is so awesome how this idea can become so big because of the constant imagination people have! This art is like a separate dimension that screws with dept perception in the most awesome, and brilliant way! It's art that doesn't loose the attraction of people, in other words one piece never gets old! I want to do this someday, and am pretty sure I will.

Response to:Japan Media Art Festival iMovie '09 Test video.

I was on YOUTUBE searching for vids on art in japan and I found this 1min and 8sec long video on the Japanese Media Art Festival of '09. and I thought it was amazing how many different creations amazed me with a small glimpse of what they were. This video really got me excited about doing things like this in my life, and being someone who enjoys creation. This festival is something I would love to be a part of.

LIFE SIZE GUNDAM IN TOKYO!

TOKYO HAS DONE IT AGAIN!!!!

This I gotta see. I have heard of and seen pictures of this awesome life-size Gundam in Tokyo and I cannot die without seeing this monument for myself! It is a life sized version of the one and only RX-78-2 Gundam model from the first Gundam animation in 1979. It is amazing just looking at it, and then I found out that IT LIGHTS UP AT NIGHT!!!! AND IT IT SOOT MIST FROM IT'S ARMOR!!!!!!!!! I always wanted to go to Japan for various reasons, and this is now one main priority! I am so happy this was finally done.

DEAD SPACE: Extraction!!!!

I for one am in love with Dead Space, and will play it in pitch black darkness, with no one else in the house in my living room (the irony playing a game of death in the room of living), for hours, though that can't be good for my eyes at all, it is almost completely worth it. AND NOW DEAD SPACE IS NOW COMING OUT WITH EXTRACTION!!!! For the Wii.. Now before I get in to detail, I want to mention to you that I am a XBox 360 owner. This makes me sad, because the game is actually really cool, and I have been dying to play this game for so long, and as you may have noticed, Xbox 360, no Wii, can't play. I really like the fact that you are an average crew member, who is able to experience the whole alien virus situation in the making, as well as the awesome co-op mode which seems like a tall order for this type of game, yet I have faith in those game makers. I am seriously waiting for this awesome game to come to the XBox 360, but for now I will wait to mooch off a friend who has a Wii.

LEFT 4 DEAD 2!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Left 4 Dead was an amazing game hands down, so for the next one I expected a lot form it as far as game play, weapons, and scene layouts. I watched a video on YOUTUBE reviewing Left 4 Dead 2, and I was quite happy with the preview I got. As you may know, the characters are a bit different this time as far as backgrounds, lifestyles, and so on. This to me is a good thing, yet it makes me sad as well. The reason for this is because I really became attached to the awesome characters in Left 4 Dead and would have liked to see them in the next game as well, but the new variety of characters forces you to explore a whole new setting with a brand new personality, and I also give the game makers koodos for the ethnic balance as well. I am also EXTREMELY happy to see the new variety of MELEE WEAPONS!!!! The chainsaw definitely made me happy, as well as the frying pan and I presume there was an axe and a baseball bat, maybe I just imagined that or something but I couldn't wait to try them out. And last but not least, the location! I can't exactly remember where it was but it sure as hell wasn't the city! I give koodos to the fact that the story takes place in a more country like and opposite of the first game, as well.
I hope you guys are as exited as I am!

What's up with gadget trends?!!!!

America: We are the most trendy people in the WORLD!!!! (My opinion.)
It is 2009 and for some reason, cell phones, computers, mp3 players, AND EVEN TV'S ARE SHRINKING!!!!!!!!! Why is this? It's because it is simply a worldwide trend now to have gadgets of all kinds small enough to get lost in your pocket! (exaggeration)
The reason why I seem to sound like I'm coming from a negative standpoint, is because this mini era has gone a little,(play on words there), too far for me. People are constantly falling in to the hands of the large brand name companies, by running to the nearest electronic store and buying the new smaller model of the phone they already have, just to find out the next month that there is an even newer smaller model coming out soon that they just HAVE TO HAVE!!!!
Again though, this is my opinion, but it only matters as much as the next guy.

Seriously?^